Do you ever have those days that you feel nothing goes the way you hoped?? I have been feeling that way for such a long time, I know that I shouldn't feel bad for myself but it's so hard not too. Most of you might know what I am talking about, some probably not. Most days I don't even feel motivated to do anything, it's hard for me to be happy for everyone when I can't even feel that about myself. This is not supposed to be a "pity post" but I just had to get some frustration out.
I know things will happen when it is the appropriate time, so we just sit and wait some more. No more tears and doubt. Patience is a virtue.
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First off, I haven't looked at your blog for a bit - but your picture at top looks GORGEOUS!!! You are stunning! I love how long your hair is getting, it makes me wish mine was, but I hate long hair on me. Anyway, I'm sorry for your hurt and frustration. Actually I am always taken aback at how strong and positive you have been - it astounds me! I would've been so negative all the time, honestly. Keep trying - it'll happen! I pray for you always.
You are strong, and you are always positive that I see! But, it is okay to be sad about it, it is sad. I know it will happen for you!
I am so totally jealous you are going to Vegas! Can I come ;)
oh, bon please don't be sad. you always have been such an example to me of strength and patience. but it's hard to wait for something when you want it so bad. i know without a doubt that you will be an amazing mother and i know that it wiill happen for you. i love you! can't wait to see you and play in vegas. hang in there.
Hey Bonnie, You're allowed to be frustrated. I say be as sad and as pissed off as you want. You're entitled to. You're the only one that has to wear your skin, feel whatever way you want. No one pities you, you’re a wonderful human. Somewhere in the back, there, of your mind simply remember "That which we persist in doing becomes easier for us to do; not that the nature of the thing itself is changed, but that our power to do is increased" (Emerson). Somewhere in the back of your mind...all it takes is a bit of hope about the size of a little seed. Just as long as a shred of that idea lives...that "no amount of falls will really undo us if we keep on picking ourselves up each time. We shall of course be very muddy and tattered children by the time we reach home, but the bathrooms are all ready, the towels put out, and the clean clothes in the airing cupboard. The only fatal thing is to lose one's temper and give it up. It is when we notice the dirt that God is most present in us: it is the very sign of His presence." (C.S. Lewis). Here's to one hell of a dirty trip.
love,
wilson
You really are such a positive person and I'm sure it will happen for you guys! I'm sorry for your frustration.. You are in our prayers!
I love that you have unhappy posts too, were just real like that. I'm sorry that things haven't worked out yet. You guys are awsome and will someday be awsome parents and i know it. But i say its okay to be frustrated. good luck!
We love you bonnie!! Everynight your in our prayers. I know it must have been hard when you heard about anna but just keep plugging along and eventually you will get your little miracle!
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